the time for dancing & singing has come

All the Burn interns graduated this past Sat. I'm so proud of them & excited for their futures in the LORD! Please pray for them if the Holy Spirit brings them to mind. Yesterday, it felt like they've been gone a week!! When you get to know people really well & live with them for a long time & they leave...you definitely feel like you miss them almost immediately. I've been asking the LORD for grace to be home for the next 2 wks. I really desire that my dad gets saved and just for more of God's love to be revealed to all of us, including myself. :)

Anyways, I am super stoked for Intro to start Jan 5. That's right! God has led me to do the Intro to Staff program at the Prayer Furnace. I should be moving in Sunday, Jan 2. I'm so excited I could just skip break & go straight into Intro! Hopefully, I'll be doing more art and writing more poetry and attempt to write some worship songs...hehe :) ...at least start singing some of the poems that I've written.

God has been still hovering over His heart for me as a Father & a Bridegroom too. The Book of Esther and 2 Samuel 7-9 have been really sticking out to me recently. I'm getting revelation slowly, but it's good! I'd really like to share some. :D In a couple days when I arrive in Richmond, I can definitely do that. Pray for me, I need His grace to just look at Him & set my mind on Him. I really desire to love Him with my mind.

Blessings...and may He grant you grace to love Him with your mind too,
Eva

Here We Are.

So. Things are changing fast for me still. I feel like I've been in transition since the Lord called me to do the Burn Internship in January. I can't believe it will be January again pretty soon!-the start of a new year!
Speaking of January, I will not be core group leading the next Burn Internship. I will be starting the Intro Staff program at the Prayer Furnace. Intro is 6mths long and I will be raising my own support hardcore. I need $350/mth, which includes rent+utilities, 2 meals a day for 4 days (We fast Mondays.), & two Bible classes for free. I guess I'll be attempting to cook some Chinese food on the weekends!! :) I will be considered a full-time missionary at the base. Prayer room and service hours add up to 42 hrs a week.

I'm really glad that the Lord has made this transition clear. Wednesday morning, He kept telling me I was His songbird. I knew He was directing me to be a worship leader. I also got confirmation through other people. There are so many things I have to learn! For example, on Tuesday, I learned that water takes 26 mins to get your vocal chords. That's why drinking water on stage doesn't help for the first half an hour :/
But now I know!
I am excited to live with the girls from this internship again! All but one of my girls from my core group will be doing Intro too. :)
Of course I wish all of them would stay in Fredericksburg, but if they feel the Lord is leading them elsewhere. Then, what can I do but let them go. I love living in community with my sisters in Christ. Such a privilege! And everyday, I get so encouraged by how they carry the presence of God and their love. Another perk of Intro is TIME! I've been putting off art and poetry for a while...it seems like forever! I'm so grateful that the Lord has given me this anointing for worship. I've played piano for a couple sets for this past month or so. And I'm eager for the time to cultivate this anointing. Thank You, Jesus!

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Eva

Splash me a little. Awaken me a little. Surprise me a little.

Happy morning!

This past Friday, I was super stressed about direction for the coming season. Before Thursday, I was SO sure that I was going to be core group leading again for the Spring Burn Internship. But now I am torn in the middle between two options. I can core group lead again OR I can go onto Intro Staff.
Friday, I could not pay attention at the Burn Service. I stepped out even before worship ended and my friend, Kayla, talked with me outside of the service. We talked about our fears about the future. She prayed for me, but I think my attitude kept me from receiving much from the Lord that night.
But! On Saturday, the Lord really gave me peace about the direction He was to send me in. Praise God!!
...As of now, I am leaning toward doing Intro Staff for various reasons that I will share later :) But I haven't gotten a 100%, definite go from the Lord, so I'm still praying about it.

For all who read this, please pray for me.
Blessings,

Eva

A Fresh Kiss Planted on My Heart

Long past due for an update-But here is what the Lord has been tenderizing my heart with...

This weekend was SUCH a refresher! The Burn Internship family went to Powhatan this last Saturday to the home of our fellow core group leader brother, Tim. :) God reawakened the His father heart to me. Through a father figure, He really told me a lot of the things that I needed to hear. And also, during class yesterday, the Lord opened up some wounds that I've held in. He told me the only way to have them healed is to know His heart as a Father.

I've gotten at least 3 words on being a butterfly and how this new season I'm in is like a butterfly breaking out of her cocoon. I learned that the only way a butterfly gets her strength is through breaking through the shell of the cocoon. If she is helped out, then she will die. The butterfly is a picture of where I am right now. It's hard, but bearable, but challenging at the same time. God has been speaking to me through Psalm 73...He is the strength of my heart & my portion forever.....

Lastly, He is encouraging me to express the heart He has formed & is forming in me. I have something to offer because He has given me. I tend to lean toward holding words in; used to holding in my thoughts. But not anymore, God is going to give me confidence in His love.

May His love be awakened,
Eva

It's Been ______________

The interns have been here for a little over a week now. And so many things have happened! I feel like they've been here forever!
There has been deliverance and times of fellowship and worship together. There have been many good testimonies of what Jesus has done already!! Healing and addictions breaking off and interns just feeling the love of Jesus. :)
I'm not gonna lie. I feel so tired and burnt out. Ministry and working and praying is labor intensive! Today I've just been resting & I'm happy that tomorrow is Consecration day. Fasting always creates good fruit. And so excited for what God is doing in these new interns. Even though it is a lot of work, I know it is going to be worth it.
:)

The Long Night

Only 2 weeks and 2 days til' I head back up to Fred!!!!!!! Well, one day actually since it is almost twelve. I'm super excited for this new semester coming up. I know there will be many changes. I'm not gonna be an intern anymore, but a core group leader. DUN, DUN, DUN! A core group leader! Haha, but I am truly SUPER SUPER excited and really giddy. I feel like God is going to help me "grow a backbone." I am big on showing mercy to others, but I am hesitate a lot of the time to correct in love. Not that I've never corrected somebody in love. My heart is not big enough to do it all the time in love. Only His heart is big enough. :) So I am looking forward to learning from my Abba & from my sisters & brothers in Christ to help. Yes, it is uncomfortable to die to myself, but it gots to happen! So let the trials come & may I cling to my Lord in the midst!!
This summer is soon over and I'd say spiritually it was a hot, hot desert. I left the internship in the wilderness and I'm still in it. Still running into me & seeing stuff I don't like. Apathy & laziness & a spirit of slumber are the main ones I'm struggling with. God is gently, but firmly speaking to me throughout this time. A lot of the time I feel so weak. I don't really like it, hahaha, but that's when His strength is evident. He really does chase me with His affection in every season of my life. I am so grateful to my God. He is so good. :)
So that is where I am now with the Lord. Just crying out for intimacy. And really...to just feel hungry again. To enter into grace to set myself before His face & receive from the Holy Spirit. I'm learning more & more that I am not just living for my relationship with God, but the people He wants to touch through me. Knowing that He has planned for me to be a leader in the next internship really puts into perspective, the ones I am to shepherd the next 4 months. He's gonna use me to mold them into His image through the Holy Spirit. I'm really excited! It's gonna be SO worth it!

If anyone reads this..which I am not sure if anyone does..pray for me & the new interns & the leaders. It would mean a lot <3
Blesssings,
Eva

"What Happened to Eva!?!?"| A testimony.

Burn Internship Testimony

I had no idea that voicing my interest in the Burn Internship would result in a decision that would wound me so much in love for God that the cry of my heart demanded that I lay down my life. This roller coaster ride started even before the internship. On a cold winter's day, I walked over to a hotel and met with Ronnette, the director of the Burn Internship program at the Fredericksburg Prayer Furnace. I walked away with an application and a strong desire to take a semester off school & just see what God did with me there. This happened while I was at the OneThing 09' Conference, so during our breaks, I would ask God for direction, but I didn't feel like He gave me any answer except to "stay in Virginia." Only a day after I got home from KC, Ronnette texted me & told me she needed an answer by the next day. I panicked a bit & prayed again to the Lord for direction. While I was praying, I heard His voice in my spirit, "Go,"
..."Lord, are you sure?-"
Again, He said, "Go."
So it was settled. I was going to be in Fredericksburg for an internship with the Prayer Furnace in 2 short weeks. Later on, my mom didn't handle it well, but [she] knew that in my stubbornness, I would not back down. So mid-Jan I headed up to Fred. for orientation day! I was super excited to start and a little nervous looking around at the other interns. Ronnette gave a little speech & introduced us to our core group leaders & separated us up into our houses. I just remember thinking how good these next four months were going to be, but little did I know that I was going to be blown out of the water with the knowledge of God, the depth of my sin, and the unending height of His delight in me.

First things first. One of first things we did as an internship was deliverance week. Early on, God revealed that I was carrying around self-hatred & shame. Self-hatred you say??? You hated yourself, Eva?? Yes, I understand it sounds like I was depressed, but I wasn't. I describe it as having a lot of insecurities or another way to say it is: having confidence in my flesh. That being said, the Lord took me through a spiritual desert. In that desert, I ran into myself {Flesh.} and I ran into God {My Beloved: shining & dazzling}. Holy Spirit showed me what I struggled with and God spoke His truth over me. Psalm 8:5 {...And You have crowned him with glory & honor.} & Ephesians 1:17-19 {v18. ...that you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints.} are two verses He used to speak to me about my worth in Him. Along with that, He extended grace for a 21-day fast from wearing make-up to show me what real beauty is and where real worth comes from.
Hosea 2 became a really vital chapter for me during the internship. In the Book of Hosea, I read about how the Lord asked Hosea to take a prostitute for a wife as a symbol of how He felt with Israel [Hosea 1:2,3:1-5]. Through that chapter, the Holy Spirit revealed to me how I was like that harlot, going after many things to satisfy me. Not knowing that in my pursuit of feeling complete, I forgot about God. But God, in His faithfulness, chased me down & drew me to the wilderness to speak to me about who He was again. Together with Hosea 2***, He led me to Song of Solomon 2:2, "Like a lily among thorns, so is my love among the daughters," to show me that His love was so utterly set apart, it can be compared to one beautiful flower among many nasty, prickly thorns. I really felt like I was falling in love again with God when I understood more of His character.

A seemingly small thing marked a great change in me during the Burn. All the ladies of the house [10, including me], were all assigned weekly chores. Being the young adults we were, we keep the house tidy for a bit & then got quite lazy with our duties. Therefore, our house 'mom' assigned a paper for us to write about character. I think we all had a reluctant attitude when we heard about this homework assignment. But God showed me while I was complaining in my heart, that this was a very caring thing to do on Rebekah's [house mom] part. She wanted us to be even more refined by God in the little things, like doing your chore faithfully. For if you are faithful with a little, you will be faithful with much. I realized even more that God doesn't look at your anointing or gifts, He looks at your heart. What is most precious to God is hidden [Colossians 3:3 For you died, & your life is hidden with Christ in God].
I will share yet another revelation from Him about character. For a short two & a half years I became involved with the Richmond International House of Prayer, I had unknowingly developed a performance mentality & pride from the anointing God gave me for intercessory prayer. My insecurity manifested in pride & jealousy when certain people would pray on the microphone at the Prayer Furnace. [We pray on the mic, so the room can hear it & agree corporately, but the idea is not to pray to the men in the room, but straight to God.] I thought, "So & so prays so much better than me." God intervened & showed me that my insecurity came from an orphan spirit. He showed me that He adopted me as His own daughter & I really didn't need to perform or compare myself to His other children. God didn't want me to pray fancy words that had no meaning or had no connection to my heart...He just wanted me to be sincere & let the Holy Spirit do His job. I realized that the motivation of the heart was very important. That put to rest my burden, so I rested in my identity as His very own.
One of the hardest parts of my life happened during the Burn. I had to cling to Him so tightly during this time. About halfway into the internship, I started asking God for direction in my life for the next season. I had already fallen in love with being in the wilderness, no matter how uncomfortable it was to my flesh! In other words, I had no desire whatsoever to return to VCU in the fall. But I wrestled with the possibility of staying because my heart was broken for VCU; I desired that God would send revival to that university & felt inclined to be a part of it. I also had worries about how I'd live as staff at FPF. As my anxiety grew, His answer came the week some IHOPPERS decided to use their Spring Break from International House of Prayer [IHOP in Kansas City, MO] to help FPF with nightwatch [prayer & worship 12am-5am]. One of those days, the IHOPPERS got to prophesy [Rev. 19:10] over the interns. I REALLY wanted God to confirm where He wanted me to be through one of them! And He did. He gave me Isaiah 62. Verse 6 talks about the Lord setting watchmen on the wall to cry out to God day and night. He told me He would set me in His house & that He's faithful. He said if I said, "Yes," He would do it. He said He was raising me up to be a deliverer & that I would find Jesus in the wilderness. He said that there's grace to cultivate years in the wilderness. And the last thing He said was that this season was to be in His power, not just experience & in His grace, not just trials. I was indescribably happy! I shouted, "Praise God!" out loud, loud enough for the whole room to hear! Now, this time of joy was short-lived because I knew I had to break the news to my parents. At first, they were very upset & disappointed with me. I had a couple phone conversations with my dad & my mom as well as one face-to-face meeting about these plans from the Lord. And their disappointment really broke me because I wanted to honor them & finish school, but I knew that if I disobeyed the Lord, the consequence would be greater. There was no shortage of tears during this time. But a miraculous thing happened! After talking face-to-face with my dad, he said these words, "I will support you in whatever you do, as long as you do it well." I was so happy! And a week later, my mom called & left a message on my phone telling me the same. She also told me a little later that when she told God she trusted Him with His decision for me, she saw a vision! It was one of a woman with most of her face blurry except for her big, shiny smile! And all around this smiling woman was a lot of purple! Hearing this really touched my heart because my mom told me that it was the first time she felt like God answered her prayer. The Lord really used this whole experience to have confidence in His will and really know my Shepherd and really know that wherever I am, God is my home.

The last thing I want to say goes with the verse, "For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain [Phil. 1:21]." One of my fellow interns preached on this & it really wrecked me. He talked about the conflict Paul had in his spirit to die & be with Christ & to stay, so that the church could be strengthened. I want to connect this point to an observation my friend made. She came to Richmond one night with me to sleep over at my parents' house & noticed my sculpture on my bookshelf. I made it in high school about marriage in America. I decided that it would represent divorce because around 50% of US marriages ended in divorce. The splattered paint purposely made the cake look ugly & bruised. To top it off, I put a broken heart on the top-layer of the cake. It was really ugly. My friend told me she felt like the Holy Spirit wanted me to do the cake over, but this time about Jesus & His Bride. So I took the sculpture to Fred. & asked Him how to restore it. What He said that meant the most to me was that, "We are one." So living in Christ & dying to myself makes us one. I want that so bad, but not as badly as He wants us to be one. Now, I am in the process of creating what He has shown me & still working on it.

In a nutshell, I'd describe the past four months like finding an oasis in the desert, but once you get to the oasis-all you can do is sit there and stare with your mouth gaping wide open. On a more serious note, I walked out of the internship, more strongly desiring to walk in Christ. Whether I live, I live for Him & whether I die, I die for Him. Though to a lovesick heart, dying to the flesh is destined because His love is greater, His jealousy as cruel as the grave. I'm not trying to puff myself up at all to say that I've arrived fully at this point. But I know that if I am genuinely sincere to desire to know God that intimately, then He will do it. I will never be perfect, but all I want to hear at the end...whether I die & go to Heaven or Jesus comes riding on the clouds with all His glory & takes me up...is "Well done, good & faithful servant, My beautiful bride. Come & live forever with Me in the the city I have prepared for you," that's all I need to hear. That's all I'm longing to hear.

Jesus, my everything

What am I doing right now? I am listening to Christina Aguilera's "I Turn to You" and I don't know if she is singing about the Lord, but that's how I'm listening to it...I feel like I'm in a season of turning. It is a season of burning. All security that has come from anything/anyone other than God is losing its grasp...
Everything I'am holding on to is disappearing. I can't hold on to my bank account. I can't hold on to my possessions. I can not hold on to people, I can not lean on them as my strength. I can not depend fully on family to be my support. I can not even depend on my church to be there for me all the time. Who can do it?? Who is able? Whose love is able to sustain me???? God. My Lord. My Beloved. The Lover. [I will try to expound more on this later...]

Tomorrow, all of us Burn interns are going to Washington DC to stand in front of the White House. A senator has asked that at least a hundred people stand outside the White House with LIFE tape across their mouth, and pray for the ending of abortion. There will be press. And I have a feeling this will be one of the most critical events I have ever been a part of so far. Please pray for us and pray together with us for the ending of abortion-that our government will promote the sanctity of life in the healthcare bill. If not, abortion will grow at an unprecedented level if this bill is passed. Taxes we pay will go to fund this mass genocide. I pray it will not happen. God have mercy on America.

2nd Week | 3rd Week

Deliverance week was not as intense as I expected it!!!!!! OH YEAH! Deliverance, for those who do not know-is going from believing a lie of the Enemy to believing the truth from God. Example: someone believes that they are ugly, then God breaks in and that lie is broken & that person lines themselves up God's truth that God sees them as beautiful and they are fearfully and wonderfully made!!! Deliverance week included: open doors, confidence in love, father and mother wounds, overcoming a spirit of fear, healing of memories, generational curses, and overcoming sexual sins/purity covenant.

The father wounds really helped me see that I've been seeing God like my dad. The Lord is good good Daddy. Hehe. God, all in all, broke off a lot of shame from deliverance week. :) These two wks, the Lord has been speaking to me about crowning me with "honor and glory" [Psalm 8:5] and showing me how He sees me instead of how I see me. Ephesians 1:17-19 has a treasure chest of revelation. I mean, check it out,"the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints." The saints-that is US!!! Meditate on these verses. I promise it will blow your mind :]
I started my apostolic preaching class last week. We were all assigned a chapter in the Bible and by the end of March have to preach 30 mins on it! I am a little nervous, but mostly excited! It was amazing our teacher asked God what to give each of us individually; and I got Hebrews 3! I am excited to meditate on it, so Holy Spirit can release some mad revelation.
Last Wed evening, the interns separated into groups and did SOZO outreach. SOZO is a class we take where we get trained in the supernatural:gifts of prophecy, healing, etc. For SOZO outreach, the group I was in went to Wegman's[super grocery store]. We prayed for words of knowledge before going in and Chad felt like we needed to go to the flower shop. So we got there and the woman behind the counter was happy to get prayer for her friends. She said we made her night :] Thank You, Jesus! We prayed for a couple others, but just wanted to share that nice testimony.
Last Thurs, we had consecration day. 10 hours in the prayer room while fasting the entire time. I believe we finally broke fast between 8 and 9PM. Every Thurs, the entire Burn staff + interns fast. Keep the flesh under control! Haha.

The King and His Bride

In the night, You came to me.
Locked far away in a dark, dreary place.
I am the Shulamite girl-out of sight,
Out of mind from the world outside.
To them, I am transparent.

In those times, He kept me alive.
Aye! My heart still steadily beats!
I was the trapped beauty. A ca'ged dove.
But the King of Glory set me free.
Across the meadow, we ran.
The dew dampening our garments.
{in a moment.....}
I was taken up by His swirling embrace.
Dapples of greens and blues danced before my eyes.
As the sun smiled in His.
My divine Romeo-
Yeshua.

He has come for me-to whisk me away.
Aye! But the bliss is short-lived.
In a hushed whisper, He tells me this,
"My hands are trained for war & my fingers for battle.
The time has come. The battle plan has been long ready."
I waste no time. My face is set toward His.
And war paint is smeared on.
We hasten together to the city as rockets fly
in the distant shores.

I Survived Week One

It is true. I took a semester off from VCUarts to go to Fredericksburg, Va. I am doing the Burn Internship [http://www.theprayerfurnace.org/ministries/burn] with the Fredericksburg Prayer Furnace (FPF). It's been a week of INTENSE orientation, but yesterday I finally got some rest. I know I am going to need some TLC before Monday begins for this week is ::DUN DUN DUN!!!!:: --> DELIVERANCE WEEK. It will be physically and emotionally draining, but I am ready :) For those who need more of an explanation on what will happen-I will explain next post.
But let me tell you how my first week went:
Sun, Jan. 17th-Move-In Day~first of all props to my family and friends who helped me out in getting here! THANK YOU for your prayers, your time, and your support!!! Love all of you all <3 Haha, but okay, the first day was pretty much moving in the whole evening. I am currently living with 3 other girls, but another is coming soon, so that will be a total of 5 girls in a room. It is a lot, but I am used to dorm living, so I do not mind whatsoever. In the whole house, there are 11 girls including our core leaders. We have a house mom..hehehe, which is awesome! I like saying 'house mom' too ^ ^ For dinner, we went to Ronnette's house [Burn Internship Director]...there must have been more than 30 people there-CRAZINESS! We got to learn all 23 interns' names and chat and eat as well as worship together <3 Afterwards, us girls went back to our house and slept. 11PM is lights out.
NEW DAY!
Mon, Jan. 18th-First day was already crazy. We had a welcome from the staff and went through FPF's overview and vision. The interns played a fun icebreaker game of "telephone charades." The day ended with dinner and corporate intercession for churches etc.
Tues, Jan 19th-EPHESIANS 1:16-19 is so jam-packed! All interns meditated on those verses in the prayer room. In the afternoon, we all headed out to Gold's Gym & received a tour [membership is included with our tuition]. Olivia taught Lisha Ann and I how to stretch. It felt so good afterwards :] Lastly, staff and core group leaders shared their personal testimonies with the interns. There was a sense of inspiration and hope in the air. Each testimony was touching in its' own way. I was a bit nervous because I knew the next day, some of the interns would have to share theirs, but talking to the girls in my core group made me feel better. I felt like shame was broken off even then. Bethany is my core group leader and Fiorella, Carlie, and I make up her group :)
Wed, Jan. 20th-FIELD TRIP + TESTIMONIES! On this very cold day, we took a small trip around historic Freddy'sBurg. We learned the prophetic history and promises of the city. Very interesting. We went to a civil war battlefield and the Rappahannock River. It was awesome to listen to David Bradshaw about amazing supernatural stories that happened at Mars Hill including angelic presences and blue feathers falling from nowhere. =O Everyone was moved during testimony time that day. Definitely a lot of tears. I shared mine last and cried a lot. But I am so glad that God gave me courage to share; I have never shared in front a whole bunch of people before. God filled me with small bursts of laughter when we went around to pray for the ones who shared. The Lord told me He wanted to set me free from shame and self-hatred. I was slightly shocked that He said self-hatred, but once I heard it, I totally broke. I don't need to envy other girls, He made me unique in His heart. =]
Thurs, Jan 21st-Spent most of the day in the prayer room. Matt Lockett from Bound4Life came by FPF to lead prayer for the March for Life the next day in Washington DC. He talked about how the prayer meeting held in Houston to ask God to break in and stop the 7-story abortion supercenter. THOUSANDS of pro-life folks showed up, silently marching through the mostly black and hispanic neighborhoods around the abortion clinic.
Fri, Jan 22nd-MARCH FOR LIFE + HOPE AT HAND! Got to Washington DC in the morning, parked, walked a couple blocks to a van and all of us helped carry a bunch of heavy boxes full of pro-life signs ["Mothers do regret abortion/Fathers regret lost fatherhood"]. We spend hours afterwards handing out the free signs to anyone who wanted them. I was encouraged to see many people there in general, as well as many young people enthused about the cause. The cause on God's heart, whether they were Christian or not. I saw a good deal of Catholics there, which was awesome! All denominations came together to stand in the gap for the unborn. I heard last time the March had a 100,000 plus crowd turn out...I have no idea how many showed up this time, but there were people EVERYWHERE! After handing out like 10 boxes of signs, we walked to the US Supreme Court. FPF had a small set up in front of the court with worship and a prayer mic. We all worshipped and prayed to God to end abortion in America and send revival. I remember the beauty I felt when the sun started coming out during worship. Some FPF interns danced in front of the court to worship the Lord. Amazing! I bet the guards thought we were weird-haha! We spend a quite awhile there. As the march got up the Supreme Court, everyone stopped and many did sing with us. Yay! After weaving through the crowd, we eventually got to the Justice House of Prayer [JHOP]. We had pizza for dinner and hung out there for a couple hours. Then, we walked a couple blocks to a hotel and had fun head banging, jumping, and dancing to a Rock for Life show. Hope at Hand was definitely the highlight of the evening for me! I bought their CD and a T-shirt. Finally, we drove back to Freddy'sBurg and met up at the FPF base. Us gals got home at around 1AM. FUN STUFF!
Sat, Jan 23rd-SORE FROM HEAD BANGING!! I know this is totally my fault, so no complaining..hehe. I was happy that a deacon from my church brought his family from RVA and brought me out for lunch and Costco. I am so grateful!! And the food was Korean-YUM-it was SO good! A WEEK UNTIL I TURN TWENTY!!!
Prayer Requests~
*someone to move into my VCU apt
*God's will be done here at FPF in my heart

Finally, Deliverance!

There is a small group that just started up last semester-catering to young adults and VCU students. LIFE group! I love going there to meet with Holy Spirit and my family in Christ SOOOO MUCH!! But last time, I did not feel like calling anyone to pick me up Wed night, which would be my last time before heading up to Freddy'sBurg. I felt I would be "in the way" since I live maybe 30 mins away from Paul and Nancy's [campus pastors] house, so I just settled and planned on resting at home.
Lo and behold! Nancy calls me while I'm making dinner and asked if I had a ride. I said no and that I didn't ask anybody. Then, she said she'd call people and find me a ride. I was feeling indifferent, so I said, "okay, thanks." A few minutes later, she found me a ride and a second afterwards, Patrick called me & told me he was gonna pick me up in 20 mins or so. So speed up the story past getting ready and picked up....zoom right up to when we got to Paul and Nancy's house, a cute little place with a yellow door.
They were singing worship songs and it was lovely, but I couldn't get myself to concentrate on the discussion. I was looking around, thinking about other stuff even when I wanted to listen! I didn't feel depressed...still indifferent, like staring out into space constantly trying to pull myself in. You know that feeling?
Anyways, Nancy even asked me what I was feeling and I just didn't know. I knew it was something not of the Lord, but I didn't know, so she said we'd talk. Someone felt like to end life group, we should separate guys and girls and pray. So six of us gals talked about prayer requests. Many people said they were being attacked by sickness. Two or three were coughing or had a sore throat. Quickly, it got to my turn and I felt a pull to share about what happened to me in the van coming home to Richmond from the OneThing Conference in Kansas City.
"In our van, people were hardcore praying for others to get set fear from oppression, fear etc. I think it is safe to say everyone was in the Spirit that night. When I heard Ethan pray for his sister to get set free from fear, the thing inside me just freaked out. The thing meaning a spirit of darkness...something was trying to hold on to me and it wasn't good. Immediately, every person who could reach me starting praying for me in the spirit or with understanding. They were trying to war against this thing!! One or two asked me to look in their eyes, so they could command it to leave me, but it did not want to look into anybody's eyes. It made me growl and shake and try to escape from the grasps of my friends, while I felt exhausted and scared that this was actually happening again!! [A similar situation happened last year on the way back from OneThing 2008]. My friends tried to discern what this was, but could not. As time went on, I do not know how long, maybe only a couple mins, our driver called Benjamin, prayer director of RIHOP, and all vans came to a halt on the side of the highway. People stopped praying as Benjamin came and brought me to his van instead, leaving my friends in the van feeling afraid and confused I'm sure. I was so tired from the spiritual activity, it was hard for me to get out of the van. But once I got into Benjamin's van, the Lord showed me something. There are altars to Buddha in my grandpa's house AND in my uncle's house."

I shared a very condensed version of that at Life group that night. I told Benjamin when it happened that I didn't understand why. "I'm not in immorality, why did this happen to me again?" Right away, Nancy answered that is it not my fault. I could repent on behalf of my relatives. So the ladies lifted me up in prayer. Nancy led...she said,"Repeat after me, Eva,...I repent...on behalf of my family...for the spirit of adultery...to Buddha!" I did not have to look into her eyes, but it was not long before I could feel IT reacting to the prayers of the saints. After she said, "to Buddha..in Jesus name," I could feel the thing leave. Literally, peace came over my spirit and I lay there on the couch [for I had fallen over] taking deep breaths and feeling joy enter in. Finally! I had been delivered after who knows how many years that thing had been attacking me. The heaviness was lifted and I was so grateful to God and my sisters' prayers! I left with that same gratitude and hugged everyone. Nancy told me that God reminded her to call me to come that specific Wed night like, "Nancy, make sure Eva has a ride." Oh, how the Lord works! I will miss them much in Freddy'sBurg. I know...it is only an hour away, but I love them a lot!
So HALLULEJAH!!! I AM FREE!!!

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